my single step

August 11, 2010

So, i’ve decided to re-vamp my blog.  Instead of showcasing my writing i’m just going to talk about it.  And books and anything else that might fit in (okay and probably an occasional rant about something or another.) But i’ve decided in today’s age of music, movie, tv, and book piracy that i don’t really want my writing out there for the world to have access to until it is published.  i hope that makes sense.

i have been participating in Laurie Halse Anderson’s WFMAD month.  Check out http://www.madwomanintheforest.com if you are interested or if you just want to play on the website of one of my favorite authors.  I have made it ten days so far with no struggle.  This might seem like nothing to some of you but there was a very long period of time where i didn’t write at all for a variety of reasons (hopefully at least some of these will come up in a later post) and getting back into the habit of writing EVERY SINGLE DAY was a big deal, not only because i had to make time for it and i have to make sure i do it but also because i had lost most of the confidence i had once had in my writing.

It’s scary to lose confidence and hope in something you love. . . something that had been your dream and goal for as long as you can remember.  Thankfully, now that i’ve started writing regularly again i have realized that the dream is still there.  AND i’m a lot happier when i write.  Surprise surprise, me, a person who doesn’t talk much is happier when she takes that tangled mess of emotion and throws it onto paper instead of letting it sit inside.  Duh, twan.

And so it begins, my journey towards becoming a writer. . . not just in the eyes of a few people but in the eyes of the world.  A writer with a book or a journal that has my name on one or more of the pages.  i know it’s going to be a rough road and there will be times that i won’t feel nearly as determined as i do right now but i want this.  i want this so much it aches.  So i don’t think i have much of a choice other than to keep writing and start figuring out my next step.


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